Saturday, September 03, 2011 @ 6:24 AMAm finally finding the time to properly pen down my thoughts after the flurry of activity over the past week.
Exams weren't too good but not going to waste my life feeling upset about it, instead just going to be grateful that I survived (though battle scars will eventually make their appearances when we get back papers! Shucks :/)
Met up with C during teatime on Thursday to just relax and have a wonderful conversation about life & such! (: Hehe thank you!
Also found the time to engage in a little madness with the sister on Thursday night in the form of squash, learning how to shuffle albeit to dubious levels of success (hehe) and singing!! It was great fun, & it was also refreshing after slumping in chairs on most days while bullying my brain into going into overdrive. SERIOUSLY.
But anyway, going to miss the sister a lot. She just left for Vancouver this evening so please pray for a safe journey and a safe stay (: Next time we'll be meeting will be when I go over (which is in about 10 months assuming I leave in July). Too long a wait but definitely worthwhile considering what a dear she is <3
Hm her leaving also has considerable impact on my life apart from us being separated!
For one, I'm going to be sleeping in my own room from now on instead of hers WHICH MEANS I had to clear my bed because I absolutely do not want to sleep on mountains of files and clothes and whatever other garbage (gosh I almost typed cabbage :o) I dumped on my bed. My eyes are still not used to actually being able to SEE the design of my bedsheet :o The bad news is now I do not have as easy an access to all my study stuff -angsty face-
Secondly, I actually feel different about my sister leaving this time. Of course I'm going to miss her being around and us annoying each other but something is different. I think it's because the last time she left I was still very dependent on her (and some other people) for emotional support. But this time, I feel somewhat like 'hey I can do this, I'm not going to feel lonely'. It showed me how emotionally independent I have grown over the past half a year or so.
In fact I actually value solitude and the space I have now. I mean I still enjoy being around my friends immensely because they're such incredible people but I also realised how precious time alone can be. Time to just reflect and think and set goals for myself. And of course, time to spend with God. I can say with confidence that I do not fear loneliness at all!
Life is good (:
On to other random insignificant things which I just feel like rambling about just for the sake of it :p
My eyeball has been twitching for the past few days, it is slightly uncomfortable and irritating. When I told my sister my eyeball was twitching she just burst out laughing and said in an incredulous tone, "Your eyeBALL is twitching?! Are you sure it's not your eyeLID?!" No but seriously it FEELS like my eyeball. And anyway I don't care if it's my eyeball or eyelid or whatever eye-related thing that's twitching I just want it to stop -angsty face once again-
Learning how to shuffle just made me miss dancing even more!!! When I get to dance again I'm going to be the happiest girl in the world and I'm going to laugh at my current nemesis (which is A levels) and be all 'IN YOUR FACE, A LEVELS! HAH!' Okay obviously got a screw loose up there. Or a few screws. Whichever.
Out of curiosity I went to google the actual definition of 'nemesis' and one result was 'a formidable and usually victorious rival or opponent'. OH REALLY. IS IT REALLY VICTORIOUS.
K I need to stop letting my insanity progress. ARGH MY EYEBALL IS STILL TWITCHING.